Kimi's 360°

I’m in the midst of fight / flight response. Due to certain circumstances, my motivation goes on a downward spiral ride. My son’s 8th months birthday was tainted by a news that i didn’t anticipate to receive. I know i put my all, and the return was nada. There are some questions which i posted quite long time ago, were left unanswered.

It’s time like this, i should contemplate and ask myself, what i’ve done less or nothing at all.

It’s time like this, i need to look at the morning sun, how it never fail to rise no matter what really happen on earth.

It’s time like this i should have more room to breath and ask, do i failed myself or was it act of God?

It’s time like this, i should stare at the farthest field and to see whether the patches is green than the rest.

It’s time like this, there is a book i should read and determine whether i suit its profile…

It’s time like this, my son is the saviour for this soul searching endeavor, eventhough he doesn’t really understand what have happen to his dear dad.:|

There is always next year, opportunity or exit door…

After waiting anxiously for 3 hours for the infamous KL afternoon downpour to stop, at last i managed to dash myself to KLCC park. It was still drizzle, breezy and the temperature dropped at least 2-3 celcius. I told myself, this is a good day to break my record. Well, my record is nothing to shout about, nevertheless it just personally mine.

At the starting line, it was abang & me who jog side-by-side at least for the next 500 meter. Since abang have no excess fat compare to me, he dashed off and left me chugging and puffing for more air. I know, it was just 500++meter. At the same time, the drizzle gets heavier i assume that i’ll be running in a torrential downpour. Luckily it didn’t happen. Phew. It was just a mild rain till the end of the session. I managed to clock 30 minutes of non-stop run. Nothing to shout about? Yeah true. However, i covered no less than 4 km for this session. When was the last time i had the same feat? I can tell you frankly, i can’t remember the exact date. What i can recalled is that it were held no less than 3 years ago. Yup, 3 YEARS AGO! That how fit i’m before compare to now. If measured to my ideal weight, now i’m carrying 23kg of excess fat/skin/cells everywhere. Eventhough it is not a nice type of experience, it’ve been part of me since i got married. Nah, i won’t blame marriage as the cause to my obesity. I blame myself of not taking charge of my health.

I’m so motivated with my current feat and i need to put harder to cover 5km in 40 minutes. I know i can do this. Someone else have done that. My time will due soon. Meanwhile, i need to get rid of this excess fat if i were to run even faster in the future. More, i wish i can run frequently in the rain without catching flu.

This photo was shot on last sunday, Aug 12, 2007 after a good shower by his dad. Ehem.My happiness turns 8 months today. He is loud, experimental and doing a lot of teething. Love books and sound. Life will never be fun without him. Ever.